I realize you haven't been on here in a long time.  But I stumbled on your blog and I read all of them.  Trust me, I can totally relate with the things you were saying.  Too much in fact.  The only advice that I can give you, is to meditate on why you would like to lose weight and make the choice that you really want to do this.  I know you do.  You will feel so much better.  Once you start, it's like riding a bike.  Start off making healthy choices, then start doing the exercises.  It will become your life.  It will be natural to eat healthy and exercise your body.  Good luck.  I hope you sign back on one day and get to read this.  Who knows...maybe you have already readched your goal!  Take care sweetie!

you remind me so much of myself when i started. i was also in the 300's and i can see you have come along way so far, i was proud of myself when the scale read under that i felt like i can conquer anything in this world so keep pushing on and you will succed.

Together we lift eachother up!

 

Here's to the best diet aid I have ever found...self-love!